| I have the worst luck with cars.. |
[08 Sep 2009|09:40am] |
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So, my car died and I've been driving Nick's around for a little over a month. First, that car died on me and I have to buy a new battery and now the brakes are going. Like, are you fucking kidding meeee..
On a happier note.. Carolann is starting to move her stuff in this week. I'm pretty excited. We're going to have Rockband parties and OTH parties and beer pong nights. So many fun things to look foward to :) It would be really cool if the cops didn't try to ruin the fun. HA. We'll seee!
My mother's party is coming up and she knows it's within the next 2 weeks. She's been so annoying about it, I keep telling her it's going to get cancelled if she doesn't stop questioning me. She's a mess.
I'm bored. Livejournal is naht fun.
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This weekend was kind of low key. I was suppose to go out with my cousin, Marcel, for this birthday but that didn't happen...whatevs.
Amber and I stayed in on Friday night. We ordered some chinese food and watched Degrassi goes Hollywood!! AAAAMAZING. Then we watched 17 Again. I want Zac Efron, in my pants. He is so so sexy!
Saturday was Jenna's baby shower. I'm so happy for her. I cannot wait until Raylee comes!! She's going to be the cuuutest. I got the best presents, obviiiiously! ha. One of her aunts called our table rude..I didn't think we were rude, just annoying. We made a new friend, Cara, she was adorable and made fun of everyone just as much as we did. It was actually a really fun baby shower. It's too bad Kayle didn't show up. Honestly, worst friend ever.
Saturday Night Shelly, Amber and I went to Jillian's to see DRG perform because we're the best fans everrrr. Then, we went to Chasers for a little while so I could meet up with Porter. The bartender was so sexy.
I hung out with my mother and D on Sunday..we had lobster and steamers :) ammmmazing. Then we went and got sundaes...so unnecessary. I got suckered in to sleeping at my mother's house because she's a baby and J was gone for the night. We watched Obsessed which was phenomenal. I recommend it.
I get to see my best friend tonight :) I haven't seen Jessica in so long!! A couple of us biddies are going out to dinner tonight..it should be a good time, I'm pretty excited. It's been awhile since some of us have gotten all together.
I feel like I am over updating because my boss is a creeeep.
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| Jackie got a new lunch buddy.. |
[12 Aug 2009|01:10pm] |
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I may have a new roommate...2 actually. Becky and her adorable son, Caleb :) I'm pretty excited that they may move in. The more I think about it, I really rather not live on my own…I'm way too much of a wuss. My friend (if you want to call him that), Bryan, was trying to move in which would be cool expect we met over the Space. I mean, we have been talking for like 4 years but, it would still be really weird if he moved in.
I recently kissed someone…I didn't expect it but I’m not going to lie, it was pretty nice. Then, I was asked to dinner. I said yes and I think that I would legit go which is super weird to me. We haven't talked about it since which I think means it was all just a drunken stupor and I probably shouldn’t think about it too much. However, it got me thinking about what I really want, and I don’t know what that is anymore. I'm really confused and I've never been this confused....ever...I absolutely hate it. Rebekah’s last day is tomorrow, I’m sad to see her go but, I know we’ll still hang out. I’m in her wedding so, she’s definitely stuck with me for the next couple years! We’re all going out to Samba in Framingham which should be a good time. Money is trying to get me to sing karaoke with him which should be interesting seeing as how my voice is absolutely awful…I’m going to have to drink a lot.
The internet is being a peice of shit. I'm out :)
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| PAT BENATAR in 2 days! |
[06 Aug 2009|11:14am] |
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I'm at work and Facebook decided that it wants to be really cool and not work which means that I have nothing exciting to do.
I have decided that maybe writing in this stupid thing will make the day go by a little faster, so we'll see how long I keep up with this.
I went to Florida like a month ago and honestly, I haven't stopped thinking about moving there.
I know it would be hard for my to leave the people I love but, I need something new...I'm young and it's time for me to do things that will benefit me in the future. I need a change. I need the sun. I need to move to Florida! Maybe the move will make my life a little more interesting..we'll see what comes of this.
I got asked to be a god mother, I don't think I'm allowed to say who is pregnant. I knew she was going to ask me. But, we're not close like we used to be so it was kind of weird to me. I am pretty happy about it, in a way I am glad that I was asked. Although we haven't been best friends in awhile, I couldn't see her asking anyone else and I don't think I would be too happy if she asked someone else. I can't wait to be a god mother :) I think maybe this happening will bring us closer together.. sometimes I miss her in my life, despite all the fucked up things that have happened over the years.
Amber is moving out in like a month.Everyone seems more concerned than Amber and I. We're still going to hang out all the time and we are certainly still going to be best friends plus it's only going to be like a year. I'm kind of scared to live alone because I am a giant wuss but, I think it will be fun to be on my own for a little. I really hope the year flies by though and nothing changes too dramatically and Ambeah comes back to me :)
Over updating, Peace.
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| I just needed somewhere to write.. |
[31 Mar 2009|01:24am] |
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I always knew the day I lost my grandfather would be the hardest day of my life. What I wasn't prepared for was that it would hurt just as much almost 2 years later. Sometimes, when I close my eyes I can see that day..walking into his house to see my grandmother, aunt, uncle, and father all sitting at the table...crying...just waiting for me to show up. No one had to say a word..I already knew what happened. The next couple of nights, he would be in my dreams and that's how I knew it would all be okay. The dreams quickly started to fade and I couldn't feel him around me as much. I thought that maybe I had done something wrong, not visited him enough...maybe. I don't know how to go through the things in life without him and I'm not sure if I'll ever get used to it. He was suppose to be at my wedding and he was suppose to be here when I had kids so that they could love him as much as I do. I miss hearing stories about all the things we used to do together and I miss him yelling at me for the most ridiculous things. Everyone always says that it gets easier with time but, it feels likes it's getting harder. I prayed today..probably the first time in my life..I just want to go back 2 years, even if it's just so I can say goodbye, even if it's just to hug him one more time. I just want to thank him. I need the only person I gave all of my trust to. I need my grampy.
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| Work is boooooooring. |
[03 Feb 2008|02:49pm] |
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The last time I posted in this was over 3 years ago..I feel like a lot has changed over the past couple years, some things for the better and some for the worse.
I don't have a boyfriend anymore which I think is good at this point..I kind of just want to focus on me...I moved into my own apartment recently with my besssst friend, Amber and I love it..couldn't ask for anyone else to be my roommate. Who would've thought that we would be this close after so many years of friendship...I love her. I am done school and working at EMC...making monnney, I am a fuckin balla. end of story. haha...Still pretty much have the same group of friends and even though we don't hang out nearly as much I still love them soo much and wouldn't want any other group of friends.. Spent the past couple new year's with them and had some parties and some lame as fights but, in the end...we get over it and we're still the hottest group around.
Over the past couple years I lost a couple people who were really amazing. Last April I lost my grandfather and ever since then my whole world has been completely different and l know that l myself have been a completely different person but, I can't help it and I don't think a lot of people understand that. I lost the most important person in my life and after almost a year it doesn't get any easier for me..I want him back everyday. My whole personality has changed and I know it and it sucks and I have been doing a lot better because I don't want to jepordize my friendships with anyone but, sometimes I don't think they understand how affected I am by losing him. He was the only person I could count on 100% with my life and losing him was a shock to me, he was suppose to be fine. I miss him more and more everyday and if someone can tell me when it starts to get easier, I would really appreciate it because I don't see when and how it can. I just miss him and need him so much.
On a happier note...I became an auntie :) My little neice Cassidy May and my nephew Owen Thomas...they are amazing and even though I am not their aunts by blood they are still my little babies. They are adorable and I love them.
I am over writing. Peace out :)
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| I Made A Coffee At Work And Put 20 Packets Of Sugar In It |
[27 Dec 2005|12:48am] |
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I haven't written in this shit for awhile but, my life is amazing right now so I feel like maybe I should share my wonderful life. Christmas was yesterday and even though I didn't get much I still love what I got. Like my giant bottle of Curious perfume and my favorite purse from Old Navy from Jessica and the coat I was obsessed with from TJMaxx from Amber. oooh yes, and my amazingly adorable ring that my aaamazing aaamazing boyfriend got for me. I got some more things but nothing will ever top those gifts. I was hoping to get a new car from my dad..the cutest BMW ever but, that didn't happen. If this surprises anyone..I crashed yet ANOTHER car except this time it wasn't even my fault, I wasn't driving. Well, it kind of was because my mother did warn me not to go to New Hampshire when we were suppose to get a blizzard but, I don't listen and I went.
The whole point of this is just to pretty much tell the world how amazing my friends are and how we can drift but then we go right back to each other like we didn't spend a day apart. 2 summers ago I spent every single night with my AMAZING group of hotties. Last summer we spent like no time at all together and barely hung out in general. But, now we hang out just like we used to and it's amazing. We're all going to spend New Year's Eve together and even though we have nooo idea where we're going yet, we're all sticking together and we're going to find somewhere for all of us to go. There is honestly no other group of people I want to spend my night with. They're the most amazing people on the face of this earth. I don't know if Ryan is going to be around for that but I hope he is, I want to celebrate the new year with him because he is pretty much the most amazing boyfriend ever.
I love my friends.
My boyfriend is soo incredible.
I love my life.
This update deserves a "snowmen'
<3
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| dooooooooo it!! |
[06 Nov 2005|11:47pm] |
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"If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you."
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| BOOOOY. |
[06 Nov 2005|02:07pm] |
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I just woke up. I'm wicked lazy. I feel like shiiiiit.
Last night I had Ryan, Fubs, Bethany, Mark, Heater, Matt, Rebecca, and Dave over. It was fun. We drank alot and a bunch of other crazy stuff happened. It was really fun buuut, crazy at the same time. Me and Ryan kissed, alot.
I'm in love with every person that came over and I wish Amber was there.
Amber:come visit me so i can tell you some thiiiiings!<3
comment, hoes.
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| Elimidate Is Love... |
[03 Nov 2005|01:25am] |
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I have a crush on Ryan.
Ryan has a crush on me.
I'm happy...
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| "Getting Everybody Fired Up..." |
[30 Oct 2005|03:55pm] |
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Do you ever feel like you have so much shit you want to say but you feel like if you say it you're just going to waste everyone's time or you feel like people are going to see it and not even give a fuck? Yeah, that's pretty much how I feel and it's not even like I have bad things to say because right now I'm content with my life and for the first time since I stopped talkin to Tory, I realized that I'm going to be fine without him and as long as I have my friends, nothing else matters.
I don't update alot and that's pretty much because my life consists of Burger King and sleeping and occassionally Amber, whom I only see once or twice a week. My life isn't very interesting. Although, I've been hanging out with Ryan alot lately and that makes me wake up really early and drive around all day and then go to work but, it's alot better than sleeping all day and then waking up, getting ready and leaving to spend the rest of my night at lame ass work.
Last night was my Halloween party and it didn't turn out the way I expected it to. I mean how the hell are you going to bitch at me for not iniviting you and then when you get invited you don't even show up? People are so fuckin lame. There was the usual fights between the boys, that's a given and some people got kicked out which sucks buuut, I told them not to bring alcohol and you think they listen? Nope. It's the boys why would they? I was really excited when they showed up too. I went to my party so smashed. I pretty much couldn't walk very well. Amber was smashed too. It was amusing. I love the people that showed up, they are amazing. Jessica and I had to fight....of course but, like always we talk and we get over it because we were both a little not sober and you know, it's us but, I love her alot and we always make up. I was sad at the beginning of the party and I wanted it to be over but, then I decided it would be so much better to make the best out of it and just have a good time with my friends cuz they're amazing and I love them to death. So, I did some dancing and got some pictures. Whoever didn't show up..it's your loss and you SUCK!
I want to take a nap. I cleaned my whole house and it looks so good. My mom left me for the day and I'm all alone and I'm soooo fuckin bored. I'm going to nap ooooor go visit Ryan at work because I have a crush on a young boy and I love to see his face, get over it :o)
comment! comment!
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| I'm Totally Updating, Guy. |
[22 Oct 2005|07:09pm] |
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I wrote a whole update and then I deleted it. I have to vent to a journal because I have no one in my life to talk to and I figured out how lame that made me so, my update is gone.
the end.
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| Whaaaaaaaaat?! |
[05 Jul 2005|12:42pm] |
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So, I don't even want to update but, you know. I get really bored.
My life has been good...really good actually. Execot for thosed days when the boy feels the need to treat me like an asshole and you know...whatever. I got demolished the other night with Heathy, Matt, Jayde, and Amber. I was a fuckin mess. It was so fun you better BELIEBE THAT! I still hang out with Amber and Jayde every day of my life and I love them so much. I hung out with Heather 2 days in a row and I love her and I hope we start hanging out mooooore.
Ok. I'm wicked bored!
SEE YA!
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| Update? Whoooooooa |
[26 Jun 2005|05:25pm] |
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Girls...I love you more than life. Thank you so much for this summer. It's been amazing and it's gonna keep getting better. Jayde and Amber...you're my favorite girls forever and ever. I love you so much.
Last night was craaaaaazy. Thank God! I love you SO much!!!!
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I moved. So, call me! Home: 476-9907 Cell: 774-291-1124
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Friday I graduated and it was the most amazing feeling ever. To finally get my diploma and realize that all those years of sitting there thinking it was hell finally paid off.Alot of people cheered for me and Tory had some horn thingy and it was amazing. Everyone was there for me because I'm fuckin amazing. It was sad but, I didn't cry until the end. When I went to hug Nicole and the girls and Jon. At the beginning I didn't see my dad and I got worried, I didn't think he was going to show up so, in like the middle I asked my mom if he was there and she said she didn't know and she started to cry and told me she loved me because he didn't think he was there either. But, when I went to get my diploma he was sitting right there and he said hi. I was so happy to see him, I was so afraid he wasn't going to show up and I would've been so hurt.The cutest part of graduation was at the end when Kaylie and Nicole hugged and Kaylie told Nicole not to cry while she was balling her eyes out. They didn't get along all year and it was just the cutest thing. I'm kind of going to miss Douglas. I didn't get to see alot of people after graduation so I didn't get to say goodbye. So, whoever I didn't see....goodbye and goodluck. Especially to Pat Murphy. Murph, I'm gonna miss taping you in the halls and trying to trip you in English...I'm pretty much just gonna miss you alot. You were a really amazing friend this year and I love you. We better hang out alot and keep in touch forever and ever! k. thanks<3
Eddddddit.
Clearly the best part of my party was seeing Amber and Jayde and Amber bringing me my wonderful drinking vest!!<333
Saturday was my party and my party was fuckin amazing. I had so much fun. At first it was just alot of family and my mom's friends and then some hot Douglas kids showed up and Rachel was the first one. Then Meredith, Ashley, Scot, Jennie, Alex, Kayla, and Eden. Then my love Mike *n* Ike showed up and he's the cutest boy. Then my favorite kids Sean, Matthew, and Sarah Gill. The other amazing people started to show up like John, Zack, Chad, Rob, Kim, Jessica, Jared, Tegan, Jimmy, Keith, and Ryan and we started to drink. We all got pretty drunk. Well the kids that stayed over and it was a good time. There was a couple incidents that sucked but, we had a fun night. We went swimming and in the jacuzzi and showed lots of titties. Rachel Hall is the most amazing girl ever, she was so funny. Jimmy, Mike, and Rebecca went in the jacuzzi at like 1 and stayed in there for like 5 hours, it was crazy. I took walks with Matthew, John, and Ryan. It was fun. I want John real bad, he's so hot. We all just stayed up until like 5:30. Well, when I tried to sleep I had Jimmy screaming every second because he wanted his bed back and Heather, Matthew, and myself were in it, he was a mess but, it was funny. I just ignored him and feel asleep for like an hour in a half. Then I woke up and took Mike *n* Ike's bed and then he layed with me and then I fell asleep again until like 11. I would tell more but, I don't really remember everything from the night. Just pretty much that it was amazing.
Yeah, Sunday was Bartlett's graduation. I had a huge hangover and the gym was so hot. I yelled real loud for all my favorite people and then after graduation I went to the mall with Matthew. I bought my first American Eagle shirt of all time and it's so cute. Then after the mall, Matthew and I went to Sarah Gill's party cuz I love her. We stayed there for a couple hours and then I came home. I fell asleep at like 10:15 and then woek up at 10:45 to Tory, Chelsea, and Aaron in my house. They love me. Then they left around midnight and I stayed up until like 2.
So, that was my amazing weekend and I can't wait until next weekend. Mike *n* Ike might come back up this weekend and I hope he does cuz I love him alot.
The end.
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| I Like To Drink |
[06 Jun 2005|11:47am] |
So my party was pretty much the most amazing thing besides a couple incidents but, I have to go to work for 9 and a half hours and when I get back I'm gonna make a biiig update about my party. k!
see ya!
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| I Get To See My Favorite Boys In 2 Days!! |
[02 Jun 2005|11:59am] |
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The last week has been pretty crazy and kind of stressful. It's all over now because tomorrow, I AM GRADUATING. Last night was Class Night and my TOTs came. Being on that stage was the most amazing feeling ever and knowing that I was going to be doing that again and receiving a diploma when I got up there, made me so happy. I can't believe high school is finally over. I pretty much love half of the class of 2005 and I'm really happy that I spent my last 3 years with them. They're amazing. I'm not gonna lie...most of my gooood friends are Juniors and I'm so sad to leave them. Last night was the first time since Jr./Sr. picnic that I saw Alex Chupka so we pretty much hugged and talked and said how we haven't seen each other is so long. I miss that boy, I miss the lunch table, I miss A2, and of course I miss fighting with Mojo. I miss everyone. But, on the other hand getting out of school is the most amazing thing in the entire world. I don't even care that I have to be more responsible now, that I have to look for a full time job, I need to save money for an apartment, I need to do all this crazy shit and I don't care. I'm out of high school...That's amazing. I actually did it. That's my whole thing on school.
Last night was the most amazing nights I've had in days. The memebers of SOT (Jessica, Jared, Tegan, and myself) sat in Jessica's living room for like 5 hours just talking. We talked about pretty much everything there was to talk about and we told some goooood secrets and we shared a few tears. There's alot of people that I would never ever tell these secrets to but, it was so nice to be able to tell people and feel like they're not going to tell anyone. I love them and it was really good to be able to do that with them. We'll do it again and again and again. I hope that this is going to make us so much closer. It makes me really happy to know that I have friends like them who I can tell anything to and trust them and not be worried about us getting into a fight and them running to everyone. I just love them, so much!
I haven't talked to Heather in awhile. She's like mad at me or some shit. I pretty much just love her so, I'll let her be mad at me and hope that she quits soon. I miss her, alot. I don't think she really knows how much I love her and how much I miss living with her. It's so different not being able to see her everyday and talk to her whenever I want to. It really sucks and it makes me so upset. Heather is the only best friend I have that has stuck by me for sooo long. She's the only one who I could actually stand living with even when she was a bitch. Ever since I moved things feel so different and I wish I could drive to her house every single day and if I had the money and the gas I would. I would go to Heather's house and hang out with her every day of my life. Heather, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. Don't forget it!!
Tory and I are getting close again and I don't care what anyone thinks. I have fun with him, he makes me happy, I love to cuddle with him. I love him and I hope we get back together. The end!
My graduation is tomorrow night at 5 at Douglas High School...Come see me!
My party is Saturday at 1 until whenever in Douglas on 6 Brookside Dr. anyone is more than welcome!
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| Goodbye Douglas High.. |
[27 May 2005|09:37am] |
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<3Happy Birthday Heather Jean LeMay and Matthew Ronald Tovani! I love you, hoes<3
So, school is over..all I need to go there for is graduation rehersal. That's so exciting. I read all these journals and everyone is so sad to leave school and this is pretty much the only thing I'm gonna miss..
<3<3<3A2...you guys are pretty much just amazing. I love you<3<3<3
I always pictured graduating on stage in Sutton and when I first came to Douglas it made me sad that I wasn't going to be doing that but, now that the time has come I'm so happy.I'm really happy I came to Douglas and made the friends I did. I love you all and thanks for some of the best and worst times these past 3 years<3
I'm done updating. I'm a lazy bitch.
SuttonLadies:I love you and miss you alot. See you lovies soon!
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Here's a few things I would just like to say...
I moved out of Heathy's house and I wish I didn't
I live in Franklin now so everyone call me 508-528-5067 :-)
I might be getting a job at EMC so I'll have lots of money
I'm moving into my own apartment in Manchaug in September..hopefully with Timmy
I went to Marcel and Tory's graduation party last night and got trashed...I loved it
My family is dysfunctional and I love them
I love the Triangle/Square of trust and those hoes better hang out with me alot more now!<3
I love a2 and I never want to leave them
Tomorrow is Jr/Sr picnic and the last day of classes
My graduation party is on June 4th...be there!
I'm actually going to miss all the Douglas kids.
I kind of love life
On that note:
I have to leave so I can go to Burger King and waste 6 hours of my life at the place I hate most.
adios
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